Catch up

It's time to catch up...

It's been several months since my last post and although I've thought about all the things I should be writing about I have failed in my execution. I've got a ton of photos that need to be uploaded of meals, fun times and various things that I want to write about and I am determined to get back on track. So as a precursor, I offer this...

A sample of my weekday of late:

5:00 am: alarm goes off
5:30 am: get out of bed and get ready for work
6:00 am: grab my coffee and head out the door - in the car today since it's going to be a long one
6:50 am: arrive at work and roll up my sleeves
11:00 am: stop working and head over to the farmer's market at the Ferry Building to pick up some fruit for the office, some salad stuff for my lunch this week and some bread at Boudin for dinner tonight
11:35 am: back at work and in front of the computer
12:20 pm: 10 minute break to reheat my dinner from last night - korean bbq beef, steamed rice and broccoli
3:30 pm: 5 minute break to see what the girls on the other side of the office are doing
6:55 pm: leave work and head back to the car for the drive home
7:50 pm: arrive at home and give the hubby a kiss and the bread while he's making dinner: spaghetti!
8:00 pm: grab the last of the Hall wine, drink, savor, shower and get in my comfy clothes
8:15 pm: head back upstairs, plate up some spaghetti and head back down into the basement with my man and my dog to eat and watch America's Got Talent
9:00 pm: go upstairs, put away the leftovers, do the dishes and pour another glass of wine, this time a Rosenblum Syrah
9:15 pm: turn off the fan and the lights, lock up the upstairs and head back into the basement.
9:16 pm: look for the dog, head back upstairs and let him in.
9:17 pm: head back downstairs, login to the computer and check email. Finally update my blog, albeit without photos or anything truly interesting.

So that's where we are. It's about 9:30 pm, I've still got 1/2 my glass of wine and I'm going to make a To Do list, Facebook, finish my glass of wine and get ready for bed. Just another day in my life.

The Season

Today on my way to work I started thinking...

Thinking about a lot of different things, actually. One of the blogs I read has been touching on the subject of fear lately. Fear is an amazing thing. It can take hold of you in a gut wrenching way, it can come unannounced when you're all alone, it can happen most anytime. But it's the way you meet it that makes a difference.

I have been very lucky in my life. Very lucky or very ignorant. I have never been one to doubt myself or my actions. I am very happy with myself and my life.

Sure, there are the 30 lbs. that I would love to lose. The financial security that I yearn for and the hope for children one day. But looking at myself...I am content. I have always had that. And for that I am grateful.

Self confidence is a tricky thing, I think. A lot of people profess to have it but I think a lot of people are fooling themselves. There seems to always be this need to show how good you are or what you have accomplished. Competitiveness. Oh, Lordy, I could write a book... But are you content with who you are and what you have?

I wish that everyone could feel that this holiday season. We get wrapped up in presents and food and parties and blah, blah, blah. It's not easy, especially in this time of recession and cutbacks. Funds are tight and people don't have the same resources they once had. It's not easy.

Hope is good, it drives us and makes us focus on important issues. Look at the recent election. Change CAN happen. It has happened! I have hope for the new generations to come. I look forward to bringing my offspring into the world because there is hope that we can improve what we have here.

And what do we have? Well, I can't speak for everyone, but I can tell you what I have.

I have love. I have family that means the world to me. I have friends for whom I would walk the earth. I have the sweetest little puppy who runs like the wind and makes me smile every time I think about him. I have a job that satisfies me and challenges me. I have a home with heat and down comforters. I have a new computer with a ginormous screen and a Christmas tree that is 10 foot tall and all lit up. I have a team to run with in the spring and a doctor's appointment on the 30th to get new orthotics. I have a refrigerator full of food and freshly made rice crispy treats. I have it all. For that, I am thankful.

Life isn't always easy. It shouldn't be. We need to know that life isn't fair. It's not an easy ride. But if we work our butts off and do everything we can to make it worthwhile... well, it will be. Life is what you make of it. Be confident. Believe in yourself. Make it happen. Go big, or go home. But we all know...going home isn't an option.

I wish you all Happy Holidays and much love. Go out there and get 'er done. It's the only way to live.